But Tinder has good looking men, I have to acknowledge that. Everyone has put their best foot forward. At some point I had to pause and ask myself which of the two personas I have was admiring those people. Happy to agree that It’s the pseudo persona. Every time I opened the App I would dread to see my brothers and my boyfriend there. Because that would confirm that we are all thieves, we happened to find each other in the line of duty.
I spent the recent Christmas Day in Hospital. And No, It was not me. They are now Okay, we thank God.
You may be curious and want to know how Christmas in the Hospital feels like and if there are any lessons; well, you learn a lot. Especially that your patience will be highly tested. Above everything else, It was a normal Day. Life was balancing itself and It was simply our turn to be in the Hospital
With your new Certificate, you start applying for jobs here and there and you realize that Yes, you’ve been sending emails for months but responses are not coming through. You check the spam folder – NOTHING.
Like any normal human being, you start wondering whether it’s something to do with how you present yourself.
And as always, let’s claim progress, not perfection. As long as you are moving forward, no matter how slow, be proud of your steps. You are doing well.
She went away fully aware that whatever this date was about, her therapist would be glad to know that she is secretly an enabler of confusing people who keep coming back, after many years.
Sometimes they come back to confuse her, other times they help her find herself. And finally, perhaps, this could be a starting point of their therapy sessions.
There’s also pressure from parents and the society for you to get married. What they don’t understand is this stage is as crucial as it comes. For instance, I now understand that marriage and someone getting a baby is not the same thing. You may get a baby before marriage with someone then realize this is not someone you will get married to. The dynamics again. And there are those that get married then have babies. Both instances are fine because people have personal reasons as to why they do the things they do.
There is something about a mother in a group of other mothers. They are very confident, loud and aggressive. Especially to their children. You will pass -by and they will burst out laughing about how they were all there when you were born and now you walk like you own the world. You will only hear ‘Hmm. Hmm. Hahaha,’ followed by whispers as their eyes follow you until you get out of their sight. But you will soon realize that they mean no harm.
One last thing I couldn’t take a picture of, guess what happened? I went to the airplanes washroom for the first time in my life. I’ve always been so scared of movements in airplanes – they don’t sit right with me. After watching a few movies where the main character goes to the washroom then something starts to happen without their knowledge, my mind blocked the idea of making movements in an airplane. But this time round, I stayed for 2 whole minutes.
See, for those of us who grew in villages, read remote village in Taita Taveta, we had pictures in our…
You will surprise yourself how far you can go. Even with fear, keep learning and keep pushing.